I fully disclose that I have always been seeking attention. As a child I loved to sing and wanted to be a famouse actress/artist/singer someday. Strangely, I was uncomfortable with beeing "seen" as a kiddo and I didn't know how to enjoy or deal with the attention, but I still sought it hard.
I think we all do this to an extent. We all want to be loved and adored, and we try as much as we can (sometimes unconciously) to get the recognition.
I realized this pattern recently about myself, really seeing it for the first time as a wave of cataclysmic energy in my career and love life. I am working really hard on breaking it up and step forward with the intention of doing good, honest work that I'm excited about, sharing it with confidence, and doing LESS to be up in y'all's faces. I want to match my actions with my new meaning of success, which is less about numbers, more about integrity.
We all have enough going on, don't we? I would rather be less on your radar and share things with you that bring value to your life, then try and wave my shit in your face every few minutes to make you "think of me". In fact, if you don't think me ever, that's ok, too. Although, I think you all of you and can never stifle this urge to share the human experience with anyone who is willing. I'd like to leave this world, having seen and heard and known a lot of you, not kept to myself. Hermitude forever? Nooo thanks.
So Autumn is here, and pumpkins are magical, so Ocotber walks are delightful. I've been cutting out some major players in the foodsphere to work on my health and have been feeling really tip top. Here's a little recipe for pumpkin bread that I've made about 4 times and I LOVE everything about it. It's pretty clean, too.
For my birthday I did a little "letter writing party" and exchanged letters instead of cake-in-person. I would be happy to continue this with anyone if they so please. Letters light up my spirit! If you want my address, just send me a message via the ABOUt page.